Even in the midst of busy days writing sample lesson plans and reflections for my Education courses as well as filling required volunteer hours for my upcoming student teaching terms, I thought I might spare some time on the NaNoWriMo for this month. I gave this showy title ‘Partygoer’ and planned a story based on my unsuccessful romantic attempt in the past but couldn’t get more than just few paragraphs.
I wished I would be a writer but I don’t know if I am still holding to that intrinsic motivations until now. I don’t think the shift of my current interest rely on the shift of the culture; I love the English language as much as I love my native language. My frustration with writing is mainly due to my lack of experience with other people; I’m frustrated in giving solid qualities in a variety of characters. No matter how hard I try I just ended up creating an unvaried clones of myself. I just can’t write a wonderful romance without actually having experienced a wonderful romance myself. I hate to think that I’m just not that imaginative writer. 😦
By the way, I’m planning a major epic story that sprang from my innermost secret fantasies; of course it will be romance but I honestly don’t know how it will turn out. It will feature a reluctant prince and a determined female warrior. Yes, a physically unwilling but philosophical prince that somewhat resembles Shakespeare’s Hamlet, but much more sympathetic and clement. I am simply oblivious what to reference for my heroine. She is strong-willed, royal and committed, but her biggest weakness is that she is so ignorant of her innermost desires. They were both adopted and have led a life that was decided for them. The overarching question they try to answer is “who and where am I?”
Of course I will definitely complete my 50,000 words and submit them some time in the future. If not this year, I can try next year. After I have succeeded in this challenge I will definitely know how to make it entertaining and productive for my prospective pupils. I wish that day would come!